Its amazing how one minute I am so uncomfortable that I don't think I am going to make it, and then something really sweet happens, and I can't believe that I am complaining about such an amazing miracle. Being pregnant is all about highs and lows...Here are some of late.
HIGHS:
Her movements are frequent, and recognizable. We can see her little hands or a foot occasionally.
The anticipation and surprise factor, we have no idea how or when she is going to arrive.
When I am objective it is amazing that my body has done such a good job of carrying her.
Dreaming about what she will look, sound, and smell like.
Knowing that I carry a piece of Dave around inside of me all day every day. I pray she gets his heart.
She is safe in our makers hands.
My faith in God has grown exponentially, because there is no other explanation for the creation of Fay's life. I have done nothing to deserve such a blessing.
LOWS:
Contractions. No one tells you that you actually have contractions for weeks up until you deliver.
Its painful to do mundane chores.
I can't tie my own shoes.
I get frustrated that I am limited in what I can accomplish. There are so many things I can't wait to tackle once I am not preggo.
Not being able to exercise. My ligament pain keeps me from being able to walk around the block.
Fear of labor, pain, and something going wrong.
Nursing fears, everyone says that it hurts so bad when your milk comes in, and I hope I am strong enough to tough it out and do what's best for Fay.
Fear that my body will never fit back into my old clothes and that I will be stuck in these ratty maternity jeans forever.
Needless to say there is a lot to look forward to, and a lot of question marks. But I have faith that it will all go according to God's plan, maybe not mine, but that we will end up healthy and happy at home, together as a family.
I LOVE being pregnant and it is definitely full of highs and lows, especially at the end! But I do want to say something that may help a little...
ReplyDeleteyour milk coming in is the BEST part!!! I didn't think that it hurt at all. It's actaully a tingling sensation and it feels good for the baby to be getting something more than just the collostrum. They seem to not suck as hard when it comes in. Nipples do get sore at first but you'll get used to it and you'll love it! It lets off awesome endorphines that make you feel instantly better no matter what your emotions were before you started to feed! Don't worry you will get plenty of practice and you'll be a GREAT mom! I am so excited for you and can't wait to hear the news that yalls baby girl has arrived!
Katie- you are going to do great. Don't worry about anything- because 1) worrying won't change anything for the better anyway and 2) inevitably the things you worry about won't end up being that big of a deal and there will be something else that comes along that was unanticipated. The best thing is to just go with the flow and know that everything that is about to happen is temporary- the labor pains, the sleeplessness, the breastfeeding adjustment, etc. It's all temporary AND the excitement and joy you are about to feel make all that stuff insignificant anyway. I'm so excited for you guys- you are going to love being a mom!
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