I have to admit I have been one of those mothers that has thought to themselves..."oh your baby doesn't sleep, she must be doing something wrong" Fay was/is an amazing sleeper. She found her two middle fingers at 8 weeks of age and has been sucking them into sweet sleep ever since. I had know idea how good a sleeper she is until Willa came along.
Last night Dave fed her at 6:30 (bedtime) then put her down. Now I would expect a 5.5 month old to sleep until at least 5 or maybe 6. However our Willa bean was up at 1am ready to eat. I told myself I WOULD NOT FEED her in the middle of the night any more. I have judged other women for feeding their babies when I believed you should just let them cry it out. That's what I did with Fay and at most she would cry for 30 mins if she ever even woke up. Willa on the other hand cried for 2.5 hours last night, and we are not talking a small whine and whimper. This was an all out, pissed as hell cry for 2.5 hours, so finally I gave in and fed her. Then she promptly wanted to be fed at 7am.
I am at my wits end. This child should be sleeping! I did it with Fay and I know I am not treating Willa that differently. What the hell is going on....
We have seen her go 13 hours but it is infrequent. 10 Hours is about her max...I realize this is not a terrible track record, but I want her to sleep from 7-7 without waking me up. That is the goal.
So needless to say I am not so smug any more...I used to be so smug about how well Fay slept. Now I realize it isn't me, she is just a good baby. And for the record so is Willa but if it's possible she may actually be more strong willed than Fay.
I prayed that I would have ambitious, independent, and smart girls....be careful what you pray for :)
I will not judge any other mothers, I will not question why they do things, I will not wonder about their marriages, and I will be humbled by these little creatures. The truth is every mother is just trying to do their best, not kill their kids, and make it through the day without too many tears (their own or the child's). So this post is to all the wonderful mothers I know...you are incredible women with amazing resolve. We are all stronger than we think.
Oh and Fay and Willa are the boss of me. I accept it.
Last night Dave fed her at 6:30 (bedtime) then put her down. Now I would expect a 5.5 month old to sleep until at least 5 or maybe 6. However our Willa bean was up at 1am ready to eat. I told myself I WOULD NOT FEED her in the middle of the night any more. I have judged other women for feeding their babies when I believed you should just let them cry it out. That's what I did with Fay and at most she would cry for 30 mins if she ever even woke up. Willa on the other hand cried for 2.5 hours last night, and we are not talking a small whine and whimper. This was an all out, pissed as hell cry for 2.5 hours, so finally I gave in and fed her. Then she promptly wanted to be fed at 7am.
I am at my wits end. This child should be sleeping! I did it with Fay and I know I am not treating Willa that differently. What the hell is going on....
We have seen her go 13 hours but it is infrequent. 10 Hours is about her max...I realize this is not a terrible track record, but I want her to sleep from 7-7 without waking me up. That is the goal.
So needless to say I am not so smug any more...I used to be so smug about how well Fay slept. Now I realize it isn't me, she is just a good baby. And for the record so is Willa but if it's possible she may actually be more strong willed than Fay.
I prayed that I would have ambitious, independent, and smart girls....be careful what you pray for :)
I will not judge any other mothers, I will not question why they do things, I will not wonder about their marriages, and I will be humbled by these little creatures. The truth is every mother is just trying to do their best, not kill their kids, and make it through the day without too many tears (their own or the child's). So this post is to all the wonderful mothers I know...you are incredible women with amazing resolve. We are all stronger than we think.
Oh and Fay and Willa are the boss of me. I accept it.
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