Being Pregnant with an Infant

When we found out we were pregnant again Fay wasn't even sleeping through the night, labor and delivery was NOT so distant a memory and I was suffering from postpartum depression, so I didn't exactly have the most ecstatic reaction. But now I feel so differently and so amazingly fortunate. Having had to do fertility treatments with Fay I never dreamed I would have a surprise pregnancy, much less one that happened so easily. This baby is already laid back, or maybe now I am laid back about motherhood. Either way I am getting to enjoy this pregnancy more than Fay's. We had worked so hard to conceive her and I was terrified that she would be taken from me or that something would go wrong. My faith had been put to the test and I was on the losing end. Now that we have Fay and are blessed every day by her smiling face, it has given me a good perspective for this baby. Not to say I don't worry at all I definitely have my moments but I also know this time around that every ache and pain is not a miscarriage and that I would get my energy back by the second trimester (which I have), and I know what to expect. That alone has given me so much more freedom to embrace this pregnancy. And Fay makes it all the more fun because as she grows I don't have to be too sad, I know I will get to experience this all again very soon :) She is so lucky to have a sibling on the way to be her constant playmate, her pal, and her best friend.

Now that I have had some time to digest this crazy miracle I am so thankful for God thrusting us into parenthood with a bang. I haven't had time to be scared and I don't have time to stress. My life is so full of God's goodness and love that I literally have to pinch myself sometimes. I can't believe we had it so easy this time around, and I would take this any day over having to medicate myself into hormonal oblivion to get pregnant. So all that to say...I am really excited for you baby #2. Your sister is an awesome girl and I can't wait for you to meet us. We love you so much...